What do I mean Paint my Pain? Why would I want to do that when all I want to do is forget?
Trust me, many artists create from a place of pain. I have known this for a long time but, I had been conditioned to cover up and hide any pain I felt. Most of my art comes from a place of whimsy and happiness. I just could not wrap my head around the idea.
Then one day, when I was going through a period of deep heartache that I could not shake. I knew I needed to keep up with my art, but I found it extremely hard to create. I hurt inside and that was all I could seem to think about. Until one night ...
I had left a blank canvas on my easel and my paint cart was sitting next to it. As I walked past it I decided to paint it black because that was all I seemed to be feeling at the moment. It was literally the middle of the night, I had not even bothered to turn on any overhead lights. The next thing I knew I had also painted a big heart in the middle. Nothing else came to me so I left it as it was.
Over the next few days I’d walk past it and another idea… One day I thought, “I wonder if using crackle paste would make it look like it had a crust on top of it?” then a day or two later, “It’s too white, what can I use to color the crackle paste?” I decided to try and see how distress paint would work over the top. I liked it, so I continued, and this is the finished product.
Now I am not going to tell you that I was back to normal feeling fabulous when I finished the painting However, I can tell you it helped. It gave me a way to let out some of the hurt I was feeling inside. Also, by seeing it everyday it pushed me to confront my pain instead of hiding from it. It really helps, this is why many people keep art journals. Even the medical industry confirms how healing creating art can be. They now say that creating art relieves stress, encourages creative thinking, increases brain plasticity, and provides many other mental health benefits. Not to mention it gives you an outlet for the pain.
So, don’t give up on creating when your hurting. Give it a try, start with just a making a background and add to it day by day until you feel you have finished. Don't worry about making it something for everyone. Create this for you alone. You just may be surprised to see how it truly helps you begin to heal and feel better.
Hugs & Love from Ranae’