How often does your muse turn to you during those melancholy stages? Do you allow it to come forth and inspire you artistically?

I don’t typically create my art to show my places of melancholy, instead my muse brings forth ideas that give me joy, with bright colors and of whimsicalities or fun oddities.

However, this was a tough week…

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I woke up Saturday and all I could think about was Mom’s day. That is a hard holiday for me, for many reasons, some of them way too personal and still too hard for me to speak openly of. But the part my muse grabbed a hold of was how deeply I miss my Mom.

Mom was a wonderful, Wife, Mom, Business woman, Homemaker and friend. It still amazes me to this day how many different people my Mom’s kindness touched.
She was always thinking of other people and could be found lending an ear of comfort, reaching out to those less fortunate than herself and encouraging others. She used to pack a little Ziploc bag with things like aspirin, Tylenol, allergy pills, tums etc. and carry it in her purse just in case one of her many friends ever needed a little emergency med care.

For as far back as I can remember my Mom and I would always use the well-known phrase, “I love you to the moon and back.” But we would put our own spin on it. For example, she would write or say, “I love you to the moon and back a million times!” I would reply, “I love you to the moon and back a billion katrillioin zillion times.” We’d just make up names for our own big numbers. That always meant so much to me and now I even do the same phrase with my youngest daughter, Della.

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As I sat there pondering how much I missed my Mom that phrase came to my muse and I added the phrase in my sketch, to say, “miss you to the moon and back.”
As I worked on this sketch my heart filled with warm memories of Mom and my smile grew. Before I knew it had happened I found my smile and although the heaviness of her being gone was still there it was surrounded by the comfort of knowing she is always with me and how easy it is to pull up those wonderful memories at any time. My muse had helped me put the smile back on my face and the sketch was like a calming medicine for me. Missing her yet so happy to of been her daughter and to have so many wonderful memories of her.
My Mom passed in 12-12-2011, and I miss her so much!

So in dedication to the most wonderful woman I ever met and was so very blessed to of been raised by. This sketch is for you Mom.

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In Memory of Jane Erion the most wonderful lady you could ever of met!
I love you to the moon and back an infinity of times and miss you just as much!

-Ranae’